Remembering...

It is hard for me to get the time to write on a consistent basis, but I have a bit of time now and thought I'd post some remembrances...this week has been one of remembering for me.

Five years ago my dearest friend died. Terri was an exceptional friend that was more soul-sister than anything else. When she passed I knew that I would never again share a relationship as special as the one we had together...and so far, I have been correct.

She died suddenly. There was no warning and I do not think I've recovered from the shock of her disappearing out of my life.

Since her death I have lost both of my grandparents...my grandfather on February 8, 2008 and my grandmother on February 20, 2009.

In the five years since her death I have also given birth to my two sons.

These have been momentous years.

Sometimes I feel her with me, I wonder if it is just wishful thinking or if her spirit; not yet ready to leave this world, has held on...and watches from the ether.

As the Indigo Girls wrote in their song "Ghost"..."of all my demon spirits, I need you the most"...I still need my dear friend and it sucks that I do not have her with me.