Heather Arundel

The Diva of Darkness

Salton Sea Sunset Photo by Ron Niebrugge

Salton Sea Sunset Photo by Ron Niebrugge
The Beauty of Hell...

Article 1 of the Universal Declaration of Human Rights - also known as my personal life motto!

All Human beings are born free and equal in dignity and rights. They are endowed with reason and conscience and should act towards one another in a spirit of brotherhood.

Who I am...

I am a wife. I am a mother. I am a survivor.
My family has made me who I am...my past family with past hurts...my current family with current joy.
Family is something you are born into and cannot choose,
family is also what you choose it to be once you are old enough to start anew...


Friday, July 9, 2010


It is hard for me to get the time to write on a consistent basis, but I have a bit of time now and thought I'd post some remembrances...this week has been one of remembering for me.

Five years ago my dearest friend died. Terri was an exceptional friend that was more soul-sister than anything else. When she passed I knew that I would never again share a relationship as special as the one we had together...and so far, I have been correct.

She died suddenly. There was no warning and I do not think I've recovered from the shock of her disappearing out of my life.

Since her death I have lost both of my grandparents...my grandfather on February 8, 2008 and my grandmother on February 20, 2009.

In the five years since her death I have also given birth to my two sons.

These have been momentous years.

Sometimes I feel her with me, I wonder if it is just wishful thinking or if her spirit; not yet ready to leave this world, has held on...and watches from the ether.

As the Indigo Girls wrote in their song "Ghost"..."of all my demon spirits, I need you the most"...I still need my dear friend and it sucks that I do not have her with me.

1 comment:

  1. I miss her, too - Terri was a wonderful person and a really good friend. I wish she could have remained with us. When she passed on I felt keenly that I was far away, too far away to share grief, to go to the funeral and also too far away to have seen her before, spend time with her. I felt it especially because the year before I wasn't able to come and when I could, she was gone.
    I feel her too, sometimes in odd situation, but I know, that she is still watching us and I know that she smiles often when she sees you with your children. She would have loved those boys just as much as she loved your daughter.
    And I think your last sentence is not completely righ - Terri is still with you and always will be