Another Year Older - It's My Birthday!

Today is the day that I stopped being a part of my mother's body - a parasite, in her eyes, for those 9 long months - and broke out to go it alone...on my own terms.  Yes, it is the DAY OF MY BIRTH! (And I do feel like I've been going it alone since birth! More on that in another post...)

I am married to a beautiful man (imagine Jamie Fraser from Diana Gabaldon's Outlander series, not kidding! My friends called him "James Fraser" when we first got together.)  He blessed me with 3 beautiful children.  I'm 37 years old, and as my husband says "ahead of the game".

But somehow, I still feel like I have yet to accomplish something.  So I've quit making excuses and I'm writing. 

I'm also losing weight.  I've been overweight since college and it just BALLOONED with each of my kids (and all those massive binge sessions - note to self, when you are bulimic and stop puking but keep binging - you will get grossly FAT!), so I'm taking charge of my health. 

Losing weight (I've still got 100 lbs to go and have already lost 95 lbs!) is very hard.  Writing is very hard.  Here is why...

1. I am inherently a procrastinator.
2. I am inherently an addict. (Oh the stories I can tell!)

So what do I do to overcome?

I force myself to write, and I force myself to say "NO" to unhealthy food.

I am not dieting, I do not believe that "dieting" works because it is not possible to diet forever.  I want to learn to make wiser choices with my food, but I'm still a busy human with 3 small humans so we go to fast food sometimes...I just order the salad and get the healthiest dressing they've got; not the double cheeseburger, chicken nuggets, fries, x-large soda AND salad.

As for the writing; well, when I'm tired from being up most of the night with the baby and I can't seem to think of anything worthwhile to say...I just blog about inane shit that no one cares about but me! ;)