Heather Arundel

The Diva of Darkness

Salton Sea Sunset Photo by Ron Niebrugge

Salton Sea Sunset Photo by Ron Niebrugge
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Article 1 of the Universal Declaration of Human Rights - also known as my personal life motto!

All Human beings are born free and equal in dignity and rights. They are endowed with reason and conscience and should act towards one another in a spirit of brotherhood.

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I am a wife. I am a mother. I am a survivor.
My family has made me who I am...my past family with past hurts...my current family with current joy.
Family is something you are born into and cannot choose,
family is also what you choose it to be once you are old enough to start anew...

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Wednesday, January 25, 2012

WIP Wednesday - Degenerates Deserve Death - ADULT CONTENT

Greetings to everyone!

I've a had a pretty eventful last few days and missed my Sunday Confession, sorry for that.  Archer Girl went of to 5th grade camp (*sigh) and I had my second root canal in eight days; plus a TON of running around to get my brother to all the places the county mental health facility is making him go to in order to (possibly) get some damn help.  So, without further ado; and no more bitching today - I give you my next excerpt from my WIP "Degenerates Deserve Death".  As always, there is adult content and I LOVE to read feedback!

Thanks.


“Do you think anyone else saw her?”
“I think the little girl peeking outta the back of that guys big rig saw her, and I don’t think she was suppose to be peeking either” she stares into my eyes, like I wouldn’t understand what she’s saying.
“Are you fucking kidding me right now?  Which one?” I whisper.
“No, and you are the only person I know that can take care of this fucker.  It’s the third time he’s been through here in six months, all three times he’s coming from the Salton Sea; and every time – see a different girl.  He’s the younger, cleaner one.  I’d have called you, but you’ve never given me your goddamn phone number!”
I rock back in shock at the venom in her voice.  Is she pissed at me?  When did I become the savior of the world?
“What makes you think I can fix this?” I look at her incredulously.
“You fixed Arnold didn’t you?  I’m here and I’ll help with whatever I have to, he usually sleeps through the day after he’s filled up on my good food and takes off just after dusk.  I think he likes to only travel at night.”
“Yeah, less cops on the road; most of these guys are on that schedule” I say, my mind is already trying to plot out how this will go down.  “Do you still have that nice mobile home up this road?”
“Yes, here are the keys.  How old is that girl you got?” she doesn’t even blink, she must trust me to be on the side of right.
“She’s nine.”
“She needs clothes?”
“Yes”
“I’ve got some old stuff of my Charlene’s up there in a box labeled ‘memories’; you can help yourself to it.  They’re old, but they’ll work” she looks like she’s about to cry all of a sudden.
“Who’s Charlene?” I’ve known this woman eight years and never heard about a kid.
“She’s my daughter.  I haven’t seen her since 1988” her voice cracks.
“Ok, that’s a story for another time.  I gotta go.  When your lunch relief comes in, make your way up to the mobile home – until then, keep an eye on our ‘friend’ and try to get the license plate and his name” I hand her my card, “and here are my numbers, the cell is on and” I look down at my phone “I’ve got coverage here, so call if it looks like he’s leaving”
“Will do.  Can I ask you a question?”
“Yeah”
“You do this a lot, don’t you?”
I smile.  “Ma, this is not what I do; because I don’t usually deal with kids, I get the fuckers alone.  I think you already knew that, didn’t you?”
“Yeah, I guess I did.” She smiles back at me.
“Go back inside.  Please act normal.”
“I can act normal, I did it for years” she replies with a bitterness I haven’t heard before.
I open the door and get in.  “Count to 100 and then you can get up”
“One, two, three…”
My mind is racing.  Fuckers are buying and taking the girls on the road with them now?  This is a new development I was unaware of, when did this shit start happening and why didn’t Jake alert me?  I’ve got to get a message to him, we need a meeting immediately.
“One hundred” she at least has the good sense to uncover her head slowly, she’s duly acting repentant so I offer her a small smile.
“You do understand the severity of our situation, right?”
“Yes, I guess, but really – we haven’t done anything wrong; right?” she winks at me!
“Shit! girl you are funny!” I laugh out loud.
“Well, can I help it if George was a nasty, evil drunk who abused me for years and then died in a drunken accident; just as you were walking around to take some sunrise shots of the sea?”  I stare at her.  God, she almost convinced me that is how it happened.
“That’s your story, and your stickin’ to it, is that right?”
“Absolutely, that is what happened.  You are a good Samaritan that freaked out when I lost my mind and all you could think about was taking care of me – maternal instincts and all that.”  Wow!  She’s really good.
“You think anyone would believe that I’ve got maternal instincts?” I laugh out loud. 
“You are better than me, older and wiser – I bet you can convince anyone of anything; can’t you?” she sure is confident of my abilities, I’d hate to burst her bubble.  Truth is, I’m one of the best liars around – my whole life is a lie, so it comes naturally.  I must be slipping because I hadn’t even thought of a cover story, it hadn’t occurred to me to prepare one – how stupid is that?  This nine year old is up one on me in the common sense department.
“Where are we going?” she asks.
“Well, here’s the thing.  We’ve had a change in plans.  Seems there is a guy back there that has a girl in his truck and if it was his daughter, he’d have brought her inside for food; ya know?”
“Yeah, I get what you’re saying.  What are you gonna do?”
“I haven’t quite got is all figured out yet.  There is a safe place at the end of this road, where you can get showered and get dressed while I try to figure this shit out.”
“Okay.” she whispers.
“What’s wrong now?” I ask.
“It would be cool if it was my sister” 

Friday, January 20, 2012

Freak Out Fridays - Girl Scout Cookie Season is Here!

Well, as many of you know, I am a Girl Scout Leader.  I take my job very seriously.  In addition to planning educational meetings and fun activities, as well as community service projects; I am ultimately responsible for encouraging my eight girls to set goals and become "entrepreneurs" during cookie season.  Archer Girl (my daughter) is the most driven out of all the girls and last year was our troops number one seller; so of course, this year she has decided she must top herself.  Ho Hum.  What that means is that I will have to put in a lot of hours with her; because at only ten years old, she cannot achieve her dream without a little help.


I know that a lot of people think that Girl Scout cookies are an organization's way of profiting off of "child labor", at least that is what I've been told before.  However, my girls LOVE selling cookies!  They LOVE earning profits that they use to do good things within their community, and I am especially proud of them for this.  This year, Archer Girl and her sister Girl Scouts are using their cookie profits to purchase bus passes for homeless students here in the Long Beach area.  This is vital aid that these children in crisis often need, but there is currently underfunding in this area.  We hope to close the gap and help the Bethune Transitional Center for Homeless Students provide these children with a means to stay at their "home school" after their families have had to relocate to shelters or other relatives homes.

There is a fantastic video on YouTube that really shows "What Can A Cookie Do?", but for some reason the embedding has been disabled.  If you have a moment, I'd encourage you to check it out here and another great example of what this program does is here

So, what is the Freak Out?  I haven't finished my novel, which I swore to myself I would do before cookie season.  I know that starting today through March 25th (when the cookie sale is over) I will be eating, drinking, breathing, sleeping...generally being consumed...by GIRL SCOUT COOKIES!  Archer Girl has a goal set of 1500 boxes of cookies (last year's goal was 1000 and she actually sold over 1400), and that is a lot of work.  I laugh because if I didn't I would cry! ;)

Wish me luck, dear readers and friends; and if you happen to have a hankering for Thin Mints, Samoas, Tagalongs, or any of the other deliciously addicting cookies we sell - well, you know where to find me! ;)

Friday, January 6, 2012

Freak Out Fridays - Resolved?

Well, as many of you saw; my freak out really started this past Tuesday with my IWSG post.  The day ended with a trip to Target, all three kids in tow, and a list of needed items that was too long to bear.  I got about 3/4 of the way through before the incessant wailing of Lil Demon, the bickering between Archer Girl and Archer Boy, and my own exhaustion got the better of me.  I left my cart where it stood, full of groceries and other sundry items; then picked up the baby, snapped at the older two and strode out of the place with tired and frustrated tears streaming down my face.  Wow!  It's been a long time since I've succumbed to that kind of dramatic outburst, and I was wholly ashamed of myself.

The week hasn't got any better, except it has; and it is because of you.

I received some of the greatest comments from you all, sincere and straightforward, they really helped me start to put things into perspective.  While I've been whirring around like an out of control radio controlled helicopter, I've managed to come to a few conclusions inside my mixed up noggin.

First, my New Year's Resolution was dumb and ill-informed.  Just because someone from NaNo says it, doesn't make it so.  I don't give a rats ass how many "followers" I have, I want readers who become friends - and that's all I want.  I started this blog - originally way back in 2010 - as an online diary for Pete's sake!  I didn't figure I'd ever have anyone reading ANYTHING I wrote, but now I've made some good friends and I love where I'm at with this.

Second, blogging is my "hobby".  I want to be a writer.  I want to write and get paid for it.  I blog to make friends and be connected and I will write the rest of the time.  It is sad that it took me the past four months to finally come to this conclusion, but that's it...I'm going to let it be now.

So, I will continue to post my Freak Out Fridays; but they will be about all the OTHER shit I freak out about in my life - not blogging, nor writing.  I'll save all my insecurities up and continue to post those the first Wednesday of the month for Alex J. Cavanaugh's Insecure Writer's Support Group (check out his latest entry in this mighty fine support group here). 

Come back and visit for Confession Sunday, I'll be discussing a deep seated fear of mine!