Heather Arundel

The Diva of Darkness

Salton Sea Sunset Photo by Ron Niebrugge

Salton Sea Sunset Photo by Ron Niebrugge
The Beauty of Hell...

Article 1 of the Universal Declaration of Human Rights - also known as my personal life motto!

All Human beings are born free and equal in dignity and rights. They are endowed with reason and conscience and should act towards one another in a spirit of brotherhood.

Who I am...

I am a wife. I am a mother. I am a survivor.
My family has made me who I am...my past family with past hurts...my current family with current joy.
Family is something you are born into and cannot choose,
family is also what you choose it to be once you are old enough to start anew...


Monday, November 28, 2011

When Life is Unexpected...Isn't it Always?

My last post mentioned my brother, and how I was sure he wouldn't ruin Thanksgiving this year.  I'm happy to report that he did not.  In fact, he didn't show up at all...until Saturday.  I was quite shocked though when he informed me that he was here to apologize for his past behavior.  He went on to tell my husband and I that he is being seen by a therapist, is in recovery (I guess living on the streets finally sunk in as his "rock bottom") and is in the process of getting on medication.  He even admitted that "I'll never succeed at anything in life unless I am willing to admit that I have a mental illness I need help taking care of", color me speechless!

I have told him that I would always be there for him, if he ever got to the point where he was willing to admit he was sick AND get the help he needs; and I'm here.  However, he left that night - forgot his cell phone - and I haven't heard from him since.

Do I fret?  Shall I worry?  No, my life cannot be about him and his disease.  I have a husband and three children to take care of, they need me more than he does.

So I go on...living life and dealing with the daily unexpected happenings, living the best I can and being the best that I can be.

Ho hum, right? ;)

Final note: I was at 45,000 words on Friday (regarding my NaNoWriMo book) and I didn't write Saturday; but when I went to "finish" on Sunday - I realized that about 20,000 words of that belong in another book.  So I deleted it.

I'm back up to 31,000 and I'm going to be writing like a maniac to finish by the 30th; but I can do whatever I set my mind to accomplish...right?  Tell me I'm right...PLEASE?


  1. Mental illness is difficult to deal with. My own mother has it and I struggle with it constantly when I'm with her. You have my sympathies.

  2. Why do the 20,000 words belong in a different book? At least claim the victory. Edit it next month (and if you edit it into two novels, so be it).

    Glad to hear your brother is doing better.

  3. All you can do is pray for your brother. And hope this is a step in the right direction for him.

  4. AWESOME header.